Where?

Where is it? What is that elusive something I am always looking for? It would help if it were something I could define. Do you have this issue? What keeps propelling us forward into the unknown? It scares the caca out of me. If I were to find it what would be the result? Would I be ecstatic or would I lay down and die due to lack of being stimulated anymore. Why does my little brain go here? Are you more at ease than am I? What does that feel like? If you find it would you email it to me? Thanks:)